Question by exkiieroh: I sent an inbox message to my ex-boyfriend on facebook, please tell me what you think!?
well, a little background… well, i had this boyfriend who was completely amazing and i took advantage of him. and now i can’t stop thinking about him. i love him. he’s expelled from my school the rest of the year and he’s grounded. i sent him an inbox message on facebook… he won’t see it for awhile, unless he sneaks on facebook. but i was wondering if you could read it and tell me what you think, if it’s too pathetic or whatever. it’s really long though, just a warning… and please don’t tell me i’m a bitch or anything, i already know that. just tell me if you think the message will make a difference… if he’ll get the real message of what i’m trying to say, or if it just seems like a big joke. thanks.
i’m probably the last person you want to talk to, or hear from. and i know you hate me for everything i’ve done to you. and i’m glad. please hate me. despise me. use a picture of me as a dart board. i don’t blame you. and i know it’s really out of nowhere that i’m messaging you. but it’s been killing me that i can’t see you or talk to you everyday. i don’t want this to sound like some stupid message asking for your sympathy, because it’s not. and i really don’t wanna let my feelings out this way, but there’s no other way to do it. i also know i won’t get a reply for awhile, maybe even a year. but it doesn’t matter because i need to say everything i’m gonna say. well, i regret everything. e v e r y t h i n g i’ve ever done to you. breaking up with you, being a bitch to you, fighting with you, causing any drama i could… it was all so stupid. yes, i’m a stuck-up, self-centered bitch. i dumped you for some hot popular guy who only wanted a hook up. when what i really had was a guy who loved me (or who said he did). and the worst part was you were willing to take me back. and then i really took it too far… i hurt you. i shit-talked you, i fought with you, i tried to make you as miserable as possible. and it was all out of jealousy. that note amber gave me to give you… well, i read it. something about her liking you and that she didn’t wanna hurt you… i felt pushed aside. and i know breaking up with you gave you the right to date anyone you wanted. but i still liked you. i never gave you that note, i said i threw it away. thing is, it’s still in my biology notebook, sitting in the very front, taunting me. yes, i’m a drama queen, i live for it. and i probably always will. that’s the only reason i can’t keep a boyfriend for my life. not that i’ve ever even had a boyfriend that’s cared about me like you did… i took advantage of what i had. and i was planning to change, and fix everything. and then… you got expelled. and i haven’t seen you since. my new seat in history is right next to yours. and that kills me every 7th period. this sounds really conceited, i mean, you’re in one room all day long. and grounded. and i’m just sitting here complaining. but i really miss you, rick. this is gonna sound really creepy… but you know that voicemail you left me the very first time you called me? i locked it… haha, september 23 at 8:56 pm. and i play it every now and again. speaking of you calling, i have a little confession… i was never out of minutes. i don’t particularly like talking on the phone with people, especially not a guy. i’m really self-conscious. and you made me feel so special. and i know you’ve forgotten about me, and you’ve moved on and you’re most likely tired of even seeing my name, and i don’t want it to sound like i’m begging for you to take me back, because i’m not. i don’t expect you to do that for me. i just need to let you know that i love you. i meant it the very first time i said it to you, and i mean it right now. i really didn’t know what i had when we were together. and i won’t see you for a year so it’s just pointless writing this but i needed to tell you. i can’t stop thinking about you, i can’t listen to love songs, or watch movies or shows with any characters that have your name… it’s horrible. sorry sorry, i’m complaining again. ugh, i don’t even know what to say anymore… please don’t get mad for me saying this. i really don’t expect you to feel the same after everything… i don’t think i even deserved everything you’ve ever done for me. just know that i’m in love with you… and that even if you hate me, i would still treat you with the same respect i treat my friends. well, i guess that’s it… bye.
he will read it. he’s sent me way longer before. give serious answers, don’t tell me it’s long because i warned you all that it was long.
Answer by Cosmini
you’re going to bore the snot out of him
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